Sunday, January 29, 2006

"Kisah Cinta Agung"

Well, recently i watched a movie 'DVD' actually, the movie is supposedly banned in malaysia. Therefore, i do what other typical malaysians does when they wanted to watch movies.... buy a pirated one at some famous shopping mall very well known for its 'cetak rompak' dvd's.... 3 for RM20... quite cheap eh.........however, this is totally not recommended... one can only do this if they fail to find a legal one *wink...wink*

Okies... back to the movie that i watched... its called "Brokeback Mountain".... I reckoned that most of you 'movie buff' must've heard bout this movie rite... yea... its a love story.... a "gay"love story and it is therefore banned in Malaysia due to the tabooness of the subject.. *helloo...someone at certain govt agency certainly have to wake up and do some reality check check ;)*

Sorry.. got sidetracked..... actually i wanna talk bout the movie... or the essence of it...

so.. its actually bout 2 cowboys *which is very manly*.. set in a place called 'Brokeback Mountain'. They were brought there by the need to find money and they did what they know best... which is to heard sheep..... so two strangers meet up for the same job and they went to the mountains. There, they took turns to heard the sheep... apparently, one guy have to sleep with the sheep *no pun intended*.. to avoid the sheeps being devoured by predators mainly wolves....

So.. there they were.. two strangers.. that have to depend on each other for survival... maybe they were not aggreeable with each other... but the reality is they definitely have something goin on by the looks and expressions.. maybe the gaze.. or the subtle expressions... anyway... over the time, things happened... but they were not admitting that they were in love with each other.... and to make matter worse, they were living at the time where people with that inclinations were dejected by society... so, they remain as shodows...and found solace at 'Brokeback mountain' over the time.. the place where they can embrace each other and find little happiness that still left in their lives....

so basically.... the stories intertwined around their relationship.. with each other and the people surrounding them...

i'm not goin to spoil it *for ppl that havent watched it* by telling the whole of the story... needless to say... in the end, the story had gripped my emotions so much that other movies have not...

yes.. i admit... i cried buckets... a real 'tear jerker' as one of my friend said....It is among the saddest, most depressing movie that i'd ever watched... with deep satisfaction at the end of it....

So, i guess it goes to show that love know no boundries.. whether its love between men and god... men and women..... and apperently.. men and men.....

maybe we havent quite understand the real meaning of love until we've been touched by it....

Kudos to Ang Lee for the brilliant direction..in bringing up the most delicate subject beautifully.....totally deserving the Golden Globe's he got recently...

And in my opinion... the star... Heath Ledger... had performed an academy award worthy of performance.... for being able to capture the emotions.... and to think that he's not gay in real life... well, its an achievement in his own right ;)

Finally... methinks... the essence of the story is... if you love someone, dont hesitate... dont wait until its too late.. and dont ever let anything come between you and your loved ones...

Well... just my two cents worth........ adios muchachos

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Today is just like any other day... i guess ;)

Its been quite a while since i updated the blog. the reason is i'm emmm..... quite busy these days(as if)

Last weekend, i went to the movie (alone..mind you).... due to some unforeseen circumstances...(came to the office to do some work but apprently it was locked).. so as the result of such an unproductive day, i went to midvalley.... nothing much to do the since there r zillons of ppl shopping for chinese new year.. so i decided to watch a movie... Memoirs Of A Geisha... It was quite interesting but nothing much to shout about except for Gong Li's (Hatsumomo) performances... she's brilliant.....the story..(as all of you knew it ) is a bout a girl who been sold to the Geisha hse to be a geisha...bla....bla...bla... and they live happily ever after..... dont u think its kinda cliche.... i'm no movie critic.. so i dont think that i've the right to bitch any movies rite....anyway.. its being nominated for the golden globes and academy awards... must be sumthin' eh....

one more thing..... i finally got my driving licence.....yippee.... but still a long way of buying my own car....(i'm counting on my sister for that).. ...and also on thursday..... i got a news that makes me shivers.. yup.. literally.... i'm goin to Japan for a three days workshop... sponsored by the ASEAN-JAPAN Centre in March 2006... but mind you.. its not confirmed yet.. but i'm definitely crossing my fingers *including toes ;)* for that... actually its nothing pun.. maybe the fact that i'll finally have a chance to touch foreign soil and gain experiences by meeting people.... i'm trying not to give soo much thought into it anyway....i'm cool.. heh..heh.. kalau ader rezeki adelah.. kalau tak jadi mesti maknanya rezeki belum sampai kan....i'm not expecting or hoping tooo much....

so... i think i better get back to work..... later lah.. adios muchachos

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Self Image

Our body is our temple.... we should take care of it.... the very notion of it sends shivers to my spine.... i've been kinda neglecting my body for quite sometime now..since the life altering incident a couple of years ago......i ate like nobody's business and ballooned up..... no excersise.... and other negative addictions *mainly nicotine*...but, i guess my posting this time is not about that sooo much.. but it does have its relevency...me thinks ;)

Nowadays, we've been bombarded with images of perfect body.... be it in the t.vs, films, and other media.....
Watching America's Next Top Model.... Fashion T.V... MTV.. Channel V.. or simply going to cinema's to watch movies is soooooo depressing.... Skinny looking and beautiful guys and gals are worshipped as god.... To have a good life...*read: career, relationships,*... means that one have to have perfect package..full stop. if not, then ur a loser...

Of course having all that made one's life easy.. in one way or another... easy to get jobs... to find a partner.. to get away with murder..... et cetera....but it doesnt mean that the life would be happy though....

But it's sad to see a person who's very dear to me got affected by it.... This is a person who is very intelligent... beautiful... have a great professional career *maybe the pay kinda suck, but the experience's priceless*....she got what it takes to be successful.. but she's reluctant to venture out of her comfort zone.....

everybody around her... be it her family and her friends can see her potential... but her low self esteem made her not realising that....believe me...all Tis.. after a deadly dose of Fashion T.V..... after watching skinny girls prancing around in their dental floss thongs... at a beach party...... then suddenly she realised that she would never be able to be like them.... bodywise lah that is.... Isnt it sooo shallow... But i totally dont blame her... its happening all around us.... tis is the reason psycological diseases such as aneroxia... bulimia...are rampant today among young and not so very young gals and guys.

i have to admit, i'm also affected by it in one way or another.... of course i want to be good looking.. have a body to die for... and party all the time.....but this is the real life honey.... just get over with it and move on... made the best use of what u've got......

So... in the end, i deduce that attitude is the keyword... having positive attitude towards life is what it takes to be successful... no matter what we've got, we can always find our utmost best feature be it physically or mentally... and make full use of that for our own good.....

have to go now... Fashion T.V is about to start ;p..................adios muchachos

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

wednesday's blues

i'm back from lunch.... did a little work and suddenly felt dizzy and nauseous...(maybe its the KFC).. but i suspect its the result of staring at the same piles of s**tty files for sooooo long... i'm seriously bored and the cough thats bogging me since these past week is so irritating.... u know wen u breathe and there's these wheezzing sound... i suspect maybe its some form of pneumonia... but i'm through seeing crappy doctors (comp's panels anyway and its free!!) and keep getting the same type of medication..I most definitely know that it'll b panadols.. some antibiotics...and cough syrup.. but it definitely had improved these past few days..no prob... i'll managed.

anyway, due to excessive boredom, certain ppl will receive a call from me... i think they must be so annoyed with me ever so often pestering them to entertain me...... but as a result, juicy stories emerged.... office politics lah katakan... thanx guys for updating me ..whether its who likes who... their latest interest (read: mata air :p).. and... tips to find partner and sound financial planning....ha..ha(really needs that since i'm down with my last 30 bucks in the bank)....

lately, i listened to some indonesian music and i found them very refreshing as opposed to the usual dosage of songs from malaysian singers.. particularly adore (maliq n d'essentials jazzy tunes)... padi and several of the names which i dont know.. thanks curlylocks...for the constant supply of cds b it originals or self burned......

i finally managed to think of some of resolutions for this year... which i certainly will only at least half fulfill by the end of the year....its not too late rite... at least i'll make it more realistic for me to achieve....hopefully... well here's the list of my resolutions:

1)... err...... maybe i'll tell it next time k.....

adios muchachos

p.s my sis just called me to tell that she just got her bonus....yey..yey... hey.. its not much but that certainly calls for celebration... and shopping of course......rite???
Yiiipppppppeeeeeeeeeee..............

I'm considerably happy today.... may PARENTS are coming to my hse...... my dad got an appointment at the U.H. i guess probably its just a normal check up.. u know, all the usual stuff... blood pressure, blood sugar. So, that means home cooked meals, ironed shirts(not that i dont iron my own shirt, but my mom claimed that she enjoyed ironing the shirts for me ;p) and made up bed( again not that i dont made up my own bed but my mom will ensure that the sheets get cleaned every 2 or 3 days)..... my parents are one of a kind... they will claim that they will go back to penang after the check up, but in the end, they will stay probably for TWO months over here. Not that i mind... but when they're here, my social life (nearly non-exsistent anyway) will somehow altered. Usually, i will stay over at my frens hse for the weekend, but if they're here, i will feel kinda guilty if i dont spend time with them (my sis have a part sumhow or another in making me feel guilty). But my parents are cool. they're kinda bohemian... a total opposites of each other. Somehow extreme.... my mom is very pious... calm and cool. but my dad is totally erratic... hypocondriac.... there'll b constant bickering with each other(which will probably last for 5 min only)...shouting... my dads swearing... my mum also is very vocal (but u can hardly hear it.. u know.. soft voice.) ... although they have much differences like the earth and the sky.. but they do have lots in common, they enjoy reading, good music and good food....and most important, they can talk with each other to resolve things in the end.......... Love them both very much....So.. enuff bout my parents, lets focus on other things.... GOSH... i have to start doin my work. Stacks of files are screaming at me.... i guess i should start doing my work now.....adios muchachos...... a long day is just beginning for me...

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Creditzzz

Well.....here i am. Welcome ME *sobs*...... I think undue credit must be given to certain people*u know who u r*... probably ur the only one who reads this anyway... who managed to persuade me into writing my own blog... I couldnt believe that i'm having writer's block at this very moment.... well...ok... get hold of urself deen.. duhhh.. people writes everything these day... what is sooo hard bout writing a blog *so i claimed*...

Maybe its the nervousness
Maybe its the expectation
Maybe its anticipation
Maybe its the excitement..................

Maybe its just me.....he..he

p.s- i write better next time.....promise