Thursday, July 31, 2008

Right or Wrong?


Sometimes, we are faced with dilemma between what is right or wrong for us. We've grown up doing something that we thought is right for us.. something of which has become a nature to us.. something that you think that your are born with and you have nurtured it so well... and it became your nature.... and suddenly, you are facing with this kind of dilemma.....


I not gonna dwellved *spelling* much in the particular subject matter coz i think that it is something kind of personal in nature... so personal that i know its gonna make me or break me.....


Erm.... The thing is, after all this while, i found myself still in the state of confusion.. I felt that admitting it would be a crime to myself... but denying it would be against the nature... But what is natural anyway....... I thought that i've reached the point of no return.... a place where i'm comfortable.... a place where i am what it is.... and slowly but surely, im moving towards the light at the end of the tunnel however dim it may be.... but suddenly, i realised that there's another branch of tunnel in the middle of my journey.... there is another light at the end of the tunnel.... shining brighter it seems.... Should i take the turn towards that exit?... or should i just go on with my plan towards the original exit?.. or should i stop.. contemplate on which tunnel to take....
One thing that i know of is that i can't turn back.... I've reached too deep in the tunnel that i wouldn't find the entry point ever again.....


So, here i am.... dazed and confused........ healed but scarred....... ;)

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Im Backkk!!!.. *kinda*

I know..... i've been letting my blog bersawang for the past month or so..... this proud baby of mine has been abandoned........ but come to think of it, i think that its really up to my discretion *or mood* to update my blog kan..... no strings attached.. im never into commitments anyway... *owh well.... for having Samantha's traits*... he..he

The good news is,.... IM BACK.......... not that i've been anywhere..... only here.. slaving myself at my work.....

So, whats new... well... its been a month plus since i started working at my new job... and so far, all is well.... I've broken myself into this boring routines and although at first, there was much frustrations and stress... on my side that is........ yeah... just imagine doin sumthing which is totally new and alien to you plus, not really getting good help * bayangkan jikalau org yang nak mengajar you tuh macam ado .. non ado jer hendaknya mengajar kita*..... So, i toiled my blood, sweat and tears lah to learn all the tricks of the trade.... *dramatic sangats kannn*... he...he...

Anyway, nuthing much interesting happens in my life nowadays...... life as usual....... ;)