Buckled up!

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I'm Yours (Jason Mraz)

I've been out and about dating people.... I'm through having meaningless lustful nights..... I've come to realised that i need to have a stable relationship.. to fully explore my inner most feelings... hoping to see my ability to really love a person.. in turn to be loved back indiscriminately.....

i guess its the age thing... im turning to the big "Three Ohh" in a couple of years and it had dawn to me that i never really given myself the chance to have a more meaningful relationship.... but then again.. maybe the chance had not really been presenting itself yet?...

As my good friends said, Im choosy... Yes im guilty of that... but how in the world could anybody not be choosy... you cant open up yourself just to any Tom, Dick or Harry do you?.... And futhermore, you cant really be choosy if there is nothing to choose from in the beginning right?..

So, here i am.. buckled up.. ready and willing to take the chance....

Courtesy of my friends, I 've been out for dates with several prospective applicants.. he..he.. However, none turns out to be interested in me... Sigh.. nevermind.... although it did tested my ego and lowered my self worth being rejected as such, but i persevered......

Maybe im jinxed...... i kept on looking at myself on the things that is wrong with me.. i could come up with a long list of it ... but unless i take step to change it, it will remain useless aite!.. maybe a session of Mandi bunga will help me in getting rid my of jinx?....hrmmmm... he..he... no, i dont really belive in those sort of things.... ;P

Will love ever come knocking at my door?... when im least expecting it?....

In the meantime, could somebody please pass me the Godiva!!... that'll do for now... ;)

A Long Day!

Firstly, i would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin to all my readers... *chewah.. bagilah meks chan nak feeling2 bagai penulis blog terkenals githoo.. he..he*... Hope its not too late for me to wish that.... ;)

ANyway, I just came back from my ex-collegue's wedding.... They were such a beautiful couple.. the thing is, i used to have a HUGE crush on this person way back when we were working togather..... and attending his wedding is some sort of a CLOSURE for me!!... to see that person happy with their significant other... i have passed that stage... and its time to move on.. oh wait.. i have moved on.. but sumhow, the remnants of the experience/feelings is still there.... and its time to brush it aside and starts a new chapter... ;)

Anyway, i learned a very good lesson today... that of all the things in the world that u can have be it family, friends, career, things.....etc......

The very thing that you can only count on.........

And the only thing that you will ever have is ............

YOURSELF!!.....full stop.