Monday, January 12, 2009

Monday Blues..

As usual.. i've got the Monday Blues again... after years of working, apparently, i still can't get over that!!... he...he

nak kata keje banyak tuh takder lah sangat.. kebanyakkan nya aku dah hand over kat budak baru tuh.... since aku pun nak tukar department dah... keje-keje kat department baru pun dah dapat dah... cuma yang aku musykil nih, surat tukar tak dapat lagi.... lembap betul H.R department kat sini... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!....

Biasalah tu.. hidup ini memang kene penuh dengan kesabaran......

and talking bout patience, nowadays, my family needs lots of it... ;)

Last weekend, its my Mom's trun to take care of my grandma... so i went to fetch her kat rumah my uncle at Kepong....

Fyi, my grandma is already bedridden for a few years now.. she's in her 80's and nak kata senile tuh tak lah jugak.. tapi biasalah org tua2 kan... mmg dah tak ingat sangat and banyak ragamnya....

At first, masa nak angkat dia, she drew a tantrum.... very dramatic githoo... now i know dari mana aku dapat perangai drama queen aku nih.. he...he... after sumer dah settle, luckily she was a bit settled in the car... and masa sampai rumah, luckily she was ok and looked settled.....

memang betul orang kata kalau bila dah tua, perangai akan kembali macam kanak2... amusing at times but most of the times annoying... i know that its not good to say that but its true... so, kene banyak kesabaran nak menjaganya... eventhough my mom herself dah tua.. in her late 60's sumhow, she has the strength to take care of her mother..... nasib baik weols dah engaged maid for doin the cleaning, and my mom usually don't cook sangat.. we usually tapau jer......

So, moral of the story, kadang2 bila aku tgk tok aku tuh, i wonder, what will happen to me when i get to that age.. sapa lah nak jaga aku kan..... luckily for my tok, she has kids, 2 dah meninggal and another 10 kids to take care of her.... kalau aku nanti??.... macam mana lah kan... sighhhhh.......

I think, when we look at our elderly, especially taking care of them, is a very humbling experience.... i pray that God will give my family the strength to take care of my grandma..

AMIN



Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Infidelity

I had a good lunch with my gurlfriends today...... Topic of the day "INFIDELITY"....

Much has been deliberated over the time on this topic.... i've come to know that there are 1001 ways that people can actually cheat on their spouses..


One of my relative who has been married for the past 30+ years found out that her loving husband has another wife for the last 24 years..!! mind you.. they were always a romantic couple * unlike my parents*.... She knew that when her husband fallen seriously ill and when he thought that he was nearing his death, he confessed that he has married another woman * until now* for the last 24 years, even before their youngest child was born!!.... It had totally devastated the wife knowing that her husband that she trusted for all her life betrayed her ... its not the other woman matters much... but as she was really upset that her husband had been lying to her all this while.. even when they were living abroad...the husband actually brought along his second family!! .... phew... And now, when both of them retired and she thought that she will sail through her golden years with her husband, this thing came up...... and now, their marriage is on the brink....... Sad isn't it!!


Plus, during the lunch, one of my friend who is a trader told me numerous stories of how men can have their pleasure taken care of even during a course of golf.... the woman caddie can actually for a certain amount of money, perform sexual favours for the golfers and this largely happens in Indonesia.... pheww!! And let alone during karaoke sessions...... where they can choose the woman that they want to entertain them during the karaoke session and later offer "Happy Ending" .... phew.....


Not to say that i didn't know all of these before.... or even indulged myself in these vices...he..he... but sumhow, i felt that i never really care of all these things happening in my life before... i've been protecting myself by avoiding getting into relationship....


I fear uncertainties......


I have trust issues..........not towards others... but at myself....


And how can i trust people if you know that all around you, infidelity runs wild..... i'm not sure whether i can actually remain loyal to one person for the rest of my life... sigh....


For me, Open Relationship is more likely to survive... dontcha think!!