Buckled up!

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I'm Yours (Jason Mraz)

I've been out and about dating people.... I'm through having meaningless lustful nights..... I've come to realised that i need to have a stable relationship.. to fully explore my inner most feelings... hoping to see my ability to really love a person.. in turn to be loved back indiscriminately.....

i guess its the age thing... im turning to the big "Three Ohh" in a couple of years and it had dawn to me that i never really given myself the chance to have a more meaningful relationship.... but then again.. maybe the chance had not really been presenting itself yet?...

As my good friends said, Im choosy... Yes im guilty of that... but how in the world could anybody not be choosy... you cant open up yourself just to any Tom, Dick or Harry do you?.... And futhermore, you cant really be choosy if there is nothing to choose from in the beginning right?..

So, here i am.. buckled up.. ready and willing to take the chance....

Courtesy of my friends, I 've been out for dates with several prospective applicants.. he..he.. However, none turns out to be interested in me... Sigh.. nevermind.... although it did tested my ego and lowered my self worth being rejected as such, but i persevered......

Maybe im jinxed...... i kept on looking at myself on the things that is wrong with me.. i could come up with a long list of it ... but unless i take step to change it, it will remain useless aite!.. maybe a session of Mandi bunga will help me in getting rid my of jinx?....hrmmmm... he..he... no, i dont really belive in those sort of things.... ;P

Will love ever come knocking at my door?... when im least expecting it?....

In the meantime, could somebody please pass me the Godiva!!... that'll do for now... ;)