Infidelity

I had a good lunch with my gurlfriends today...... Topic of the day "INFIDELITY"....

Much has been deliberated over the time on this topic.... i've come to know that there are 1001 ways that people can actually cheat on their spouses..

One of my relative who has been married for the past 30+ years found out that her loving husband has another wife for the last 24 years..!! mind you.. they were always a romantic couple * unlike my parents*.... She knew that when her husband fallen seriously ill and when he thought that he was nearing his death, he confessed that he has married another woman * until now* for the last 24 years, even before their youngest child was born!!.... It had totally devastated the wife knowing that her husband that she trusted for all her life betrayed her ... its not the other woman matters much... but as she was really upset that her husband had been lying to her all this while.. even when they were living abroad...the husband actually brought along his second family!! .... phew... And now, when both of them retired and she thought that she will sail through her golden years with her husband, this thing came up...... and now, their marriage is on the brink....... Sad isn't it!!

Plus, during the lunch, one of my friend who is a trader told me numerous stories of how men can have their pleasure taken care of even during a course of golf.... the woman caddie can actually for a certain amount of money, perform sexual favours for the golfers and this largely happens in Indonesia.... pheww!! And let alone during karaoke sessions...... where they can choose the woman that they want to entertain them during the karaoke session and later offer "Happy Ending" .... phew.....

Not to say that i didn't know all of these before.... or even indulged myself in these vices...he..he... but sumhow, i felt that i never really care of all these things happening in my life before... i've been protecting myself by avoiding getting into relationship....

I fear uncertainties......

I have trust issues..........not towards others... but at myself....

And how can i trust people if you know that all around you, infidelity runs wild..... i'm not sure whether i can actually remain loyal to one person for the rest of my life... sigh....

For me, Open Relationship is more likely to survive... dontcha think!!